I have come to terms that I am getting older. I am by no means one of the most "seasoned" women out there, but at times I tend to relate most to those that are my senior. I say this because of just another example of my day today at work (should blog every day because no one would ever believe me). Today I get up and get ready to go to work like normal, grab Dietrich, strap him in and head on out the door. Everything is going great. I even see gas prices are falling a bit because in this day $3.28 is considered cheap. Side note--I remember filling up gas tanks for 97 cents a gallon when I was 16 back in 2000. Wow that was 11 years ago! My routine is to drop Dietrich off and pray the 30 minutes it takes for me to get to work. I am able to have an out-loud uninterrupted conversation with God during this time. I am determined to have a positive day. So I get to work and put my lunch in the faculty lounge and head to my room to prepare for my students. With the positive attitude I pray again for my students that have been troublesome in my classes so that maybe I would have a smooth day.
Academic Success (30 minute reteach) starts and the students are quite talkative. I'm a bit nervous because the students are usually still asleep at 7:30 at that time so I should have known what was coming. A few minutes after the first period bell rings, I have two girls going at it in my classroom. It was verbally and then they started to get out of their seats and head toward one another. I then had another student refuse to work and then grabbed a notebook out of my hands and continue drawing. That was just my first period. Second period is eaten up by a meanlingless meeting that we must attend every 3-4 weeks, only this time I had to be on my game because Elkhart West middle school came to visit us.
Third period rolls around and it is the same students from period 1. The rest of the period goes pretty smoothly. Go to lunch, things sound fine, get back from lunch and the students I have are just plain talkative and loud. I couldn't do anything but stand next to students and continue walking around to ensure they were working and not disrupting others. Sixth and seventh period come and the students are just okay.
I was just plain exhausted today. My 4th/5th hour class (I have them 100 minutes) just plain wear me out. I'm so ready for a change. That's where the "seasoned" relationships come into play. My mentors and close work friends is the generation that is retiring I've lost many mentors so far and am losing another two this year. I know I am not going back to work as of now and I feel as though I'm retiring too. I know I'm going to miss teaching and reaching inner city students. But if I were to stay, it could be harmful to my health, I'd miss Dietrich growing up, and I'd miss many other opportunities to serve God.
On another note: Dietrich was at Riley the weekend before last. This week he is starting to get a bad deep cough again even though we have continued the breathing treatments as needed. He has an appointment with his pediatrician tomorrow, March 17th at 5:45. Hopefully we can figure out what's up with the poor little boy!
Here is a pic of him from last Friday-- just exhausted from being sick!
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