It's been awhile

Hello, from a long time ago!  It's been a very long time since I've posted anything!  I'm going to try to use this blog as more of a positive outlet and some pondering thoughts.   

A lot has happened since July 29, 2010 and much of it has been nothing but bliss.  January rolls around and I decide to head back to work.  Dustin, being as supportive as he always is, just makes it known that he will support me in any decision I make, but he would have liked me to stay home.  Me being me and the "I can do all" thinking leads me back to work.  The second day back to school I am called an "F-ing B" but of course it was said completely full out.  The week goes on and I was just exhausted.  There have been fights every day since I've been back.  There have been arrests, suspensions, heart breaks, etc.  I found out a former student of mine is pregnant at 17.  Nothing but just major blows.  Sometimes it seems as though my career isn't worth it anymore.  Our school was redistricted and we ended up with some harder students.  By harder I mean: They raise themselves.  They act like animals at times because they are in survival mode.  My classroom is well managed, the students do what they are supposed to, but as soon as they leave my room it's as though nothing I do sticks.  Are they too far gone by the 8th grade?  It also makes me wonder how they got this far without someone telling them how it is?  I'm just not sure.  

Something else that makes me wonder if my career is as important is that I am now a mother.  I want to be the one that raises my child, not a baby sitter, though we are blessed with the BEST baby sitter we could ever ask for!  My best friend Amy is watching Dietrich.  She is just such a blessing in our lives that we cannot ever thank her enough.  God has definitely been a part of everything we've done with Dietrich.  I have learned to trust in God fully.  Along with that trust comes all of the blessings and we sure are blessed.  

My schedule was getting up at 4:45, pumping, getting Dietrich ready to go to Amy's for the day, work a full schedule, and then go home to spend the 3 hours I had that evening with my family.  

Fast forward to March.  Dietrich finally catches a virus that I inevitably brought home.  It landed him in Riley's emergency room and then admitted over night for monitoring.  He was sent home with a nebulizer and steroids. 

Now it is March 13th at 17:21.  Not much has changed in my schedule, other than I have allowed myself to dry up this past week.  No more Bessie here.  Wouldn't you know it too, that cabbage of all things takes the pain away in two days and dries you up quickly and painlessly?!  Loved it!  

As I reflect upon my life just since January, a lot of change has occurred.  I gave up a lot of things just to go back to work.  It has been hitting me hard most recently.  I haven't given up things that are just fun.  I have given up my position of leading Bible study, being a part of a women's group at church, gave up many Sunday mornings just to rest because I was so overwhelmed, given up girls nights of just discussing how the Lord is working in our lives and how we're serving him.  So in essence, what I've given up is my healthy spiritual life.  

Lastly, I just want to give props to God.  I want to praise Him for every blessing that means the world to me:
1. Salvation through his Son
2. A loving husband
3. A beautiful, happy, healthy son
4. A home
5. A new vehicle
6. The financial position to pay off our bills so I can stay home with Dietrich after this semester.

Praise Him, He is worthy, He is Holy.